And I think the spaces inside my fingertips are reserved for you, so slip your fingers through and through and watch how perfectly they fit, see how flawlessly we fit. See in those moments we are perfect, and I can't even fathom how much I love you.

I cant remember the last time I felt this helpless
and I'm trying so hard to find a way out of this
I thought about it today, stood high rise on the carpark
staring over, into the floor laid jagged down below
I can't imagine an ending without you, and you have to know
I want you so much, I want this so much, I can think of nothing else
I want you to tell me we'll work it out, and I want you to mean it
I want you to tell me there's nobody else, and I need you to believe it
I don't know what I'm doing, but I'm doing it without a stomach
without a heart and without a brain, see I left my heart back on that train
I'll pick it back up when I see you again. I really hope it's not too late
I promise I'll wait, I can wait if you can wait

I never thought this song would sound so significant
that it would be so delicately intertwined
it was just melodic mess, just simply nice
it was never meant to burrow inward and hide
it's not relevant, not stated, just saturated plain
and now it's here, throwing riddels around my brain
and it sounds so real, it's so right, though it was written for us
and it's terrifying, I need to drag myself out of this mess
before I make something out of nothing and ruin this

I wanted to write something for you
'cause you're struggling with absence, I know
and though you don't see it, I'm struggling too
dreading each day a little more until you go
until you leave and I'm left swallowed
I'm always thinking of you, always waititng for you
always planning the smallest parts of tomorrow
and every part of tomorrow revolves around you
I'm not going anywhere, and you're staying with me
There's nowhere on earth that I would rather be

If not for you, I would have lost myself some time ago
I'd still be falling, stumbling through days, still waiting
if not for you, there would be these little holes inside of me
but I'm not panicked and I'm not broken anymore
you patched me up and held me in, and now I'm strong
so I'm going to fix you up now, I'm going to help you get along

It's been a while and now your smile is almost like a memory, but then you're back and I'm fine 'cause you're with me, and I'm in love with you. And I can't find the words to make it sound unique, but honestly you make me strong, I cant believe I found someone this kind. I hope we carry on, cause I'm in love with you.

You have this tendency to do everything just right
when I'm running red, heading high
you send me back to meet the ground
when I'm running red, heating up
you touch me slight and cool me down
when I'm burrowing inward, holding a frown
you open me up and let me breathe new
and yes I fight, but I lose and I can't fail to smile
so stay up with me, and talk me through and through
'cos it turns out I can't sleep good without you

even if you fade back and fall deep into memory
know this, you'll never be forgotten, not readily, not easily
even if it's aching pain and I'm ambushed, choking
even if it's pushed so far down and kept in shadows
you'll always be the first, you'll always be the best
you'll always be the one who saved me from myself
you'll always be the one who kept me from harm
you'll always be the one who kept my feet placed firm
the one who kept me holding on, holding strong for you
so no matter what happens, no matter who else adheres
I always loved you first, it'll always be you who stole me

You're exactly where you were always supposed to be
I know you're a good man, and I know you mean well
and I don't hate you as much today, Im in a good place see
but you're just this faceless voice, confined to a cell
you're not my dad anymore, you're not my family
It's not easy, this isn't coming so steadily for me
but I think I've stretched as far as I can without breaking
so it's time to let me go, I need to be rid of you completely
and don't be weak, and don't be cruel, just try to understand
you're no good for me, you're a cancer, you're destructive
and I'm holding on to too much right now
I won't let you touch something this good
you can't stand taller than me pa, if you lack a spine
and it's cruel I know, but you've been dead to me for such a long time
so stop condemning me to stretch empty words with a ghost
and let me keep this love in tact, let me keep what's mine
just fade away into dim memory, don't fight this reality
'cos when mothers breath faltered and fell weak
you killed the space I reserved for you inside of me