this is a bit of alright

i am safe without it i am safe without it
but i feel all this way leaning on this way
i steal, i heal i'll do it again
over and over and over and over

i can see the whole sky's stretch now
and on a different note, my dreams are full again

each time like this with you is like the first time
just like we're sixteen again and we are so happy

i just read something unsettling, and i didn't flinch once, i can't even recall blinking

beauty's in the eye of the beholder
i was lucky enough to be near her so i told her
funnily enough i missed the freckles on her shoulder
and that even on the hottest of nights her skin was colder

i'm okay with this.

i am ever so light now
all seems alright now
i have no urges to fight
or to frighten anyone now
i can feel myself gravitating
not climbing anymore, just floating up with ease
this smile isn't premeditated
i can't eagerly hate anymore
and i know you don't care anymore
but i'm fine now and i forgive you

you actually do consider all this to be conceivable
though your perseverance i have to say is much more admirable
trying to project this persona filled of amiable qualities
preaching god and forgiveness outward, outward, outward
you are a joke
i'd like to think you hit sent and shivered, switched right in your head
but i know better, i know of your persevering ignorance
you've got your fingers crumpled, your mind has fumbled
'cause it's nothing of loyalty, there are no ties binding you and me
the only similarity we bear is a tainted surname
our time has fizzled and any memory shared darkened
it's easy for you to shift focus and eagerly place blame
if you like i could offer you a slanted perspective
without shedding breath i could put you to shame
but something's diverged right there in your brain
there's no direction present, nothing poignant to say
something that never was, i simply asked you to pay
your rebuttal delivered was full of hate, contempt, shame
so if you don't mind i'll cut you off, and simply denigrate you all day


i'm not angry anymore