i'm fine, i'll keep saying that i'm fine
but it's a lie, it's all sedated, it's all lies
you know i can't keep it all held up inside
i'm ecstatic, i'm elated, i'm so fucking high
and it's all fractured, captured by you
see, you broke me, opened me sideways
and i'm spilling out, so you're filling me in
i don't know how this is piercing me, but it is
i don't know how you're piercing me, but you are
i can't explain this to you, i've tried, i'll still try
though it always comes about without, it's always runs dry
it's without all these thoughts that drown me, they suffocate me
this is it, it's you, you're everything, you're light.
and i'm still blind, but i'm feeling you out
and i'll fill you in, if you just give me some time

rapidly becoming a little less scared
a little less terrified, a little less guarded
i'm still unsure, still considering, still ordered
but it's falling so fast, so quickly unraveling
with every conscious moment i'm traveling back
to that tender place when it's only me and you
when you fit into the jagged part of me that is empty
the unkept part, deep, that is hidden and lonely
still, i don't know how to think of it in any logical way
i only know one critical thing, i only want you
all the time, every shared moment, every day
and i don't ever want that aching again, i never want you to be away
i just want you to come back, and i want you to stay
distance will soon be dissipated, so don't you cry again
and believe me when i say, that when it's my choice
i'll always choose you, i'll never leave this bed empty again

i can't do this, can't think of anything
just empty, this hurts too much. i feel sick



please come back

seagulls

it's too quiet tonight, so i'm restless
always moving, i'm anything but listless
you're everywhere, you're all over
curled inside my sheets, backlit in my mirror
you're inside these songs, it's feels as though
each word was written for me and you
this one particularly, and it frightens me
but breathing steady, here is the only place i want to be
with you, tightly coiled, where the moon has stolen light
so i'll play it for you, when the time is right
and then you'll understand what i'm trying to say
when i'm barely awake, at the end of every day

there are no pretenses here
everything is laid out so delicate
so mystery is shed, mystery is lacking
and illusions are intense, endlessly stacking
it's unfamiliar, untread ground, so i'm tiptoeing slight
but don't fret sweetheart, it's all turning up
it switched ever so fast, and it feels just right
and you know how i think that you're just right

It's you. Just you and barely anything else.

Tomorrow could be the best day of your life.

everything is so white, just blank, i can't find them
there are no words, no words come to mind
the only thing etched across is this constant smile
when waiting to stay with you and simply waste time
it doesn't falter, it isn't fickle, it's brand new
and it's yours, it's all yours
you have no idea just how good i'll be to you

oh god, you make my ears bleed
you are not poetic, nor deep
you are just really, very embarrassing
so please just stop, just go away