you really have no idea
i don't, you can't imagine

opened cracked, taking breath, stretching lids now
wasn't aware i could cry that much, i've been harvesting tears
you learn something new every day, this isn't for you
lean in, suck fresh air, cold lips are waiting

I think I saw you in my sleep, darling
I think I saw you in my dreams,
You were stitching up the seams
On every broken promise that your body couldn't keep
I think I saw you in my sleep
Oh, I think I saw you in my sleep, darling
I think I saw you in my dreams,
You were stitching up the seams
On every broken promise that your body couldn't keep
I think I saw you in my sleep
I thought I heard the door open, oh no
Thought I heard the door open, but I only heard it close
I thought I heard a plane crashing
But now I think it was your passion snapping
I think you saw me confronting my fear
It went up with the bottle and went down with the beer
And I think you oughta stay away from here
There are ghosts in the walls and they crawl in your head through your ear
I think I saw you in my sleep, lover
I think I saw you in my dreams
You were stitching up the seams
On every mangled promise that your body couldn't keep
I think I saw you in my sleep

i haven't thought about you in months.
when you're spoken of it's all numb, like a monotonous script laid before me, like i'm being teleprompted, nothing is drawn from inside. how hard is it to simply think of you, to register that you were once here and that you had meaning, you had a laugh and you had a smile. you can't even measure how tragic it is that you're not here when you compare it to the fact that nobody cares anymore, you aren't prominent, and you aren't registered correct or aching in our memory. it makes me sick, and right now i am the worst of us. you don't deserve this, i wish we could trade places.

you know what they say about truth

I don't want to do this anymore
but don't fret, don't look up and fret
don't be fooled by the generality, those words
they aren't deep, not crass or meaningful
they are simply shallow, completely innocent
though the weight blinds, heavy and full

Sometimes it feels like a barricade
that keep us away
to keep us away, it kind of does
It starts to feel like a barricade
to keep us away
Keep us away you know us

Full speed half blind full tilt decline
we turn to past times full speed half blind
full speed half blind full tilt decline
onto all time full speed half blind

echoes lay in wait, silent, hoping for a signal
as she empties herself of fear and plunges headfirst
her denial is superfluous and growing
her hair grand and healthy, flowing
her eyes flicker, shifting nervously, they don't linger
but don't be fooled brown eyes, they saw you
she breathes and tries to digest what was said
with no avail, it sits uncomfortable inside her arched head
weighs heavy on a full and trembling chest
she lays in wait, hoping for some signal
drawing in the dusty night, quietly taming it with healthy lungs

no masks here, i'll ignite, i'm just a fucking fool
this mind is so clouded by reckless thoughts, echoes
always picking and picking apart, dragging upside
i never realised before. it's me, not them
so fucking self destructive, reclusive, inverted
so concerned with myself, i can't even see it for what it is
could have been something nice, even meager
it's such poor intent, it's funny climbing up is the best i get
so i keep dropping low, bracing myself to stand back up
this routine is driving me insane, i'm so close to breaking
this constant rise and fall is making me sick
i'm going to be sick

it's like learning a new language

i have a good feeling about this
just dwell and see how it plays out
let it tower up, swell and burst
before it begins to fade back out

if only you'd been a little more devious
held on tight a little bit longer
stuck around a couple more weeks
and you'd have had me round your finger
could have had anything you wanted
would have given you anything you wanted

you don't even try, and that's the hardest part
i'm so inadequate in comparison
all the signs are imminent, you aren't subtle
but so intriguing, so unaffected
mockery is outright deception, it's reeling
and you've only seen that one side, the rest is kept
it's holding, just waiting to curve around your edge
i like everything that i've seen, i like you best